The Pastability

I hide behind a computer because my anxiety takes ahold of my brain. My anxiety holds me back from so many things. It's been 6 months since I have vaped away the thoughts running through my body. Everyday I have to fight it away cause I can't vape, Not today, not tomorrow, not in a million years. But why can't my brain take a break. The urge fills my veins wanting me to just take away the pain. I want to cry all day long. Nightmares when I sleep. Hold me back once more my friend as it gets hard to breathe. Hold me tight my friend cause tomorrow might be the day it all goes away